Its time to move in.

I'm moving out in 24 hours. 
As I write this, I'm laying in bed at 4 am trying to wrap my head around the idea that I'm leaving my mommy and my two puppies to move to a place where I know absolutely no one that is three and a half hours away. I just wanted to write my thoughts down somewhere because sometimes I get too caught up in trying to be....independent. I am independent. My mom told me today that she wasn't worried about me moving away and knew that I'd cope with it better than most people would. I've put up this front, as I'm sure every other college freshmen has, that I'm not scared to move out or go to somewhere completely new. The fact of the matter is I'm completely terrified. How am I going to live on my own? No one will be there to take care of me when I'm sick and I don't know what to do. No one to do my laundry or clean the bathroom when I don't feel like doing it. 


I'm leaving my best friend. 
Some people have known their best friend for like 10 years, but I've known mine for about two. We were those people that really didn't think we'd ever be friends with each other, but now, she is my sister. She knows all of my secrets, my fears, my worries, and most importantly my dreams, passions, and goals. She supports me in everything, no matter what it is. I've been called crazy, stupid, dumb, fat, mean... any hurtful word you can think of but not one will ever come out of her mouth. As I've lost almost all of my friends, she's stuck besides me and I've stuck beside her. Most people say they lose touch with their high school best friend, but I know I won't be one of those people. 


I'm making the right decision. 

I'm having all these doubts in my mind, but I also know I will be completely fine. I know I'm going to make new friends, I know I'll talk to my mom every day, and I know my best friend and I will see each other as much as possible. Sometimes you just kind of procrastinate the emotions until you have to feel them. That's what I've done, and that's probably what I'll always do. I probably feel 50% more confident than most college freshmen because I know I can do it. While others are going away to college to party and rush for sororities/fraternities, I'm going to learn more about what I love, and I'm so fortunate that I've grown to be the person I am today with the help of the people surrounding me. It's just scary, ya know? 

Here I come college. 

3 Ways to Pass a College Class

As a dual enrollment student (I went to college my senior year of high school), I found a lot of useful things out that I'm glad I have as I move away from home already worried about living on my own, paying for my own things, etc. Instead of worrying about if college classes are really difficult to pass, I can focus on the things I need to...like not dying and learning to do proper laundry.

You might be surprised as to how easy college classes can be IF you decide to put your mind to them.

1. STUDY.

I know you've heard this a lot. I was one of those students who never had to study in high school. I could make a high B without glancing at the study guide, but guess what, kids, you're going to have to open the book a couple (hundred) times to make that hard concept stick. College is as hard as you make it. You aren't going to get through it without putting your best effort into every class. Some classes are going to push you more than others. For instance, biology was one of the hardest classes I've ever taken. The professor made sure every single detail was included on the test and some of those little facts wouldn't stick in my brain. I studied hours upon hours and on my first test, still made a C, but that's partly because I was learning to study as I was also learning biology. Just put your mind to it. You can do it.

2. Make New Friends

Number two goes right along with number one. You might be the type of person who likes to keep to yourself but I encourage you to break out of your shell and make new friends. These friends are the ones that are taking that same killer history test next Wednesday. They need your knowledge and I'm sure they remembered to take that small detail that you didn't pay attention to while you were tweeting. One thing I learned is that they also might know a better study technique. Sometimes they think of a really good way to remember a term that you would have never thought about alone. Take that risk and just talk to them because the worst that could happen is they don't really say much but almost everyone is in the same situation as you. A new school, few friends...just take the risk. Its so worth it.

3. Sit at the front

Yeah, yeah, yeah...I know what you're thinking right now. "That's what nerds do," well guess what, its cool to be a nerd in college. You're paying a crazy amount of money to further your education so why not do the best you possibly can? This can be added on to number 2 because the smartest friends you're going to make in a class of hundreds of people is the people sitting at the front, taking tedious notes, and making friends with the professor after class. THESE are the people you want to make friends with because these are the people who are paying attention. The ones in the back are usually the ones who barely got into college, making the snide comments about the professor. So don't be afraid to come to class a little early and grab that front row seat because you won't have to try to hear over 15 rows of people which can sometimes be hard depending on how low the professor's voice is. 



I hope this can help at least one person. I'm so glad I got the experience of college while still in high school, living with my parents, and not having to pay for it all. There's so many great opportunities in college and the best thing you can do is get rid of all the nerves. Be confident. There are probably about 1000 people at your school in the exact same situation as you are. 

xx

A New Chapter.

Hi. 

This is my first time writing about my life...ever. I've never kept a journal. I've never vlogged. I've never really told anyone how I felt.

I decided to start this because in less than a month, I'll be moving away from home to start college. For any of you out there who are in high school or are about to start college like me you can only imagine what I'm feeling... excited, nervous, and most of all, scared. No more mom and dad to rely on for everything. No more high school friends that you've know for years. Its absolutely terrifying. 

First of all, I want to tell you about myself. My name is Alexis, or Lexi for short. 

I have one best friend. That's it. She's all I have. There's a point in your life where you start to realize who your real friends are and for me, that was about a month ago. I lost almost all the friends I have...or had. I'm not saying this to sound pitiful or despairing, I'm writing it because its the truth and that's okay. Life is just a beautiful book with a new chapter every few pages, right? 

I'm addicted to the internet. I absolutely love tumblr and twitter. My favorite thing in the whole world is One Direction... I even have an twitter solely for them (mostly Mr. Harry Styles). The internet is a wonderful place full of wonderful people who make you feel like you aren't alone. There's always someone who understands where you're at in your life. Whether your having problems or just want to share a great experience, we live in a glorious world filled with magnificent people. 

I have one goal as of today: to figure out where I belong. 

xx